21.4.09

Mommy Guilt and Jealousy

I have recently been having lots of moments that have made me feel guilty or jealous as a mom. For example, I felt guilty when I accidentally headbutted Fox today when we were playing. He looked at me like I was trying to kill him or something. Another thing I feel guilty about is not coloring eggs for Easter. I hardboiled a dozen eggs, but then it was nice outside, so we never got around to coloring them. I asked Fox if I was a bad mommy because we didn't color the eggs, and he said, "Yep!" I am sure he didn't mean it...

And here comes my mommy jealousy: Fox calls his daycare provider, my friend Shannon, Mommy! It is crazy. I am mommy. But I guess Fox has two mommies. He recently called a couple other people Papa besides his beloved grampa, and that helped soften the blow. But still...